Ok, so I've set up the background to what I want to talk about today. In a facebook post I recently put on my personal page about all I've described above, my mind was spinning about something relative to the conversation and not the primary point I was trying to make. After doing some research and thinking, I wanted to highlight and dissect the following quote from Astrid Alauda, a psychologist whom specializes in Buddhist quotes. I believe her quote embodies exactly the message I am trying to convey because it's not just sweeping obesity under the rug, it's what we can do about it within ourselves to not be desensitized to it.
"Don’t let your mind bully your body into believing it must carry the weight of its worries." -Astrid Alauda
Self: "I want to lose weight"
Doubting Thomas: "Well, it's been a couple years and it's really tough to get back into it. I love food and socializing and I'm worried that cutting out that portion of my life will leave me friendless."
Corner Box Guy: "I can do it."
Thomas: "But will you?"
CBG: "If I just put in a little work and it will take me far."
Thomas: "But it's SOOO much work to get that far. I'm not sure if you are really ready for a lifestyle change. I mean, look at yourself. It's hard for you to climb a flight of stairs and you adore Top Ramen WAY too much to simply cut it out cold turkey."
"Don’t let your mind bully your body into believing it must carry the weight of its worries." -Astrid Alauda
When I look at Alauda's quote, it resonates so much with me truthfully that I can often see how people can misconstrue it's purpose. Allowing the right voice to "should" you (i.e. bully you) is in fact a good thing-but the choice is yours as to what voice you tune into most. Don't we learn about tough love growing up-particularly from our mothers? Mothers are an authoritative and loving figure in our lives that guides us to what is right and wrong and is blatantly honest with us out of love...often times when others aren't. The Changer voice is your personal tough love monitor, your honest friend, your competitive drive, and essentially the spirit you can choose to ignore or ignite within yourself. With it turned on full volume, you have even more potential to do all those things super positive Corner Box Guy says you can--except this time, you are taking action in the RIGHT direction.
What bullying oneself actually looks after the Changer's volume is turned up and you've had the honest discussion about yourself |
So, now I have explained all the voices and choices we face and you want to seriously make a change in your life. Here's how I did it and you can do it to.
- I got real with myself
- I turned the volume on Changer to high, while muting Thomas as much as I could, and turning CBG on low
- I faced the facts
- I made goals
- I made a plan
- I follow that plan-take it for a test drive
- I assess the plan to make sure it's working (making changes if necessary)
- I get results
- My CBG and my self confidence are married in true self love and happiness and my Changer voice continues to push me to the next phase of personal growth, fitness, and health-and so we go back to step one and repeat with a different set of goals
Getting real and facing the facts are truly the most difficult thing to do. It's harder than working out, going on long runs, you name it. After not being honest with yourself for years, it's hard to confront yourself and have that interpersonal conversation you have been avoiding for such a long time. I liken it to breaking up with your past, your fat, whatever it is you want to get rid of and/or change in your life. We bully ourselves all the time because we are our worst critics; however, when listening to the right voice, that bullying allows us to have the right conversation that is honest and turns us into our biggest supporters and motivators.
- This is you now.
- You do not want this.
- You can no longer accept this.
- You do not want to feel this.
- You did this to yourself.
- You have no one else to blame.
- You do not love the skin you are in.
- You pretend to love your curves.
- You hide your legs with jeans and your stomach with bigger clothing.
- You have a low self image confidence that you shadow by highlighting confidence in other things that .you are good at-thus ignoring the problem.
- You worry too much what others think, yet do nothing to stop that.
- You NEED to stand up for yourself.
- You matter.
- You NEED to love yourself enough to take CARE of yourself.
- You MUST love other people more by taking care of yourself-don't be their burden or a cause for their worry.
- It cannot wait any longer.
- You have to get back.
- You have to get stronger.
- You cannot accept no for an answer.
- You.HAVE.to.do.this.
A lot of the Changer voicing the facts gave me many of the things I wanted to work on, to reverse, and to change. The key to this step is to actually write them down. For me, I knew writing was a huge part because it put the ink in mental stone. I made a list of goals that were both short and long term. You can see them in my first post from way back when.
Ok, so you know you want to be more fit and lose weight and you've written down your goals. But how do you make a plan? For me, writing goals down wasn't enough, so I started this blog where I was accountable to not only myself, but also to everyone reading them. Even more scary and liberating was to not only take, but post, before pictures of myself. It was so difficult and I bullied myself into doing them-vulnerable and all but man, it later became another thing that I faced the music about that was worth its weight in gold. And now I have a forever reference of how far I've come and how much I intend to never return to that state of mind or body.
Another part of the plan was looking up fitness programs. I didn't want to just join a gym or buy fancy equipment; I knew I couldn't allow rewarding myself with expensive in-home gym equipment as a newbie to the whole thing and I knew if it was a convenience, I wouldn't actually make a permanent change. It's like buying a motorcycle because one day you want to be a rider but have taken no classes and no action to become one...it just doesn't make sense to make the investment until you've invested the time elsewhere and proven the commitment. I found a strength training class that meets twice weekly (setting up a routine schedule is a great way to remain accountable) and I started regularly going to classes like Zumba and Tae Bo. For anyone starting out, easing into a routine will make the transition much better. Try a few things out and you'll discover right away which workouts give you the jollies and what doesn't float your boat. The goal at that point is just to get active and try things on for size.
As stated in many past posts, I do not believe in dieting. I think it's way too easy to yo-yo and it won't have lasting effects. So, part of your plan needs to be what you intend to do with your eating habits. This for many is a struggle and portion control takes a bit to work on. Give it two weeks of eating correct portions and I promise your stomach will stop feeling like a wretching pit. Try to eat as clean as possible and that will make sure your body is getting the right nutrients throughout the day and don't be fooled by 100 calorie packs...if you shouldn't be eating it in the first place, 100 calorie packs are still empty calories and cheating. If you HAVE to find a fix for salty or sweet cravings, any Google search will show you alternatives to those foods you crave and some even offer reasons of why you crave what you do and how to counteract it (i.e. crave sweet things when you are dehydrated because the flavors will make you salivate, giving a false sense of liquids in the mouth). Here's a great article on cravings.
Try all of these 3 elements of your plan out for a solid month. See how you feel, if your energy levels have spiked, identify problem areas, etc. and then adjust to set you up for success. Maybe Friday nights are tough-that's fine, one day to be carefree helps and you might find that over time you end up making better decisions on that day after feeling how much work it takes to drop and keep off a pound. Either way, you are guaranteed to get results. It's virtually impossible not to feel better and more encouraged when you start to feel less achy and you realize you can push a little harder this week vs. last week. Relish in that pride and use it as a means to continually commit to your goals.
The best part about doing this and sticking with the plan is that your actions are finally speaking on your behalf Have a bad week and didn't lose anything? Did that mile that wasn't supposed to be tough kick your bum? I promise that people are much more understanding and incredibly more supportive of your situation when they know you are actually doing something about it instead of griping all the time or silently not saying anything (like that big elephant in the room).
When your Changer voice is turned up, you will find yourself often in the midst of a food temptation when BOOM! in comes the voice of reason reminding you all the reasons you started in the first place. Let it bully you, listen to it, react towards the positive and you can't go wrong. Same thing goes in the gym: perhaps the instructor isn't looking your way or maybe you know you could do an extra 5 lbs on those weights but you just aren't up for it...when the Changer voice comes in to badger you, it's probably exactly right. I mean, you are there anyways. Don't just show up. Be present for the lifestyle change and give 100% effort or else you are wasting your time and that nagging voice of Thomas will come back to haunt you instead of encourage you like Corner Box Guy.
Another part of the plan was looking up fitness programs. I didn't want to just join a gym or buy fancy equipment; I knew I couldn't allow rewarding myself with expensive in-home gym equipment as a newbie to the whole thing and I knew if it was a convenience, I wouldn't actually make a permanent change. It's like buying a motorcycle because one day you want to be a rider but have taken no classes and no action to become one...it just doesn't make sense to make the investment until you've invested the time elsewhere and proven the commitment. I found a strength training class that meets twice weekly (setting up a routine schedule is a great way to remain accountable) and I started regularly going to classes like Zumba and Tae Bo. For anyone starting out, easing into a routine will make the transition much better. Try a few things out and you'll discover right away which workouts give you the jollies and what doesn't float your boat. The goal at that point is just to get active and try things on for size.
Try all of these 3 elements of your plan out for a solid month. See how you feel, if your energy levels have spiked, identify problem areas, etc. and then adjust to set you up for success. Maybe Friday nights are tough-that's fine, one day to be carefree helps and you might find that over time you end up making better decisions on that day after feeling how much work it takes to drop and keep off a pound. Either way, you are guaranteed to get results. It's virtually impossible not to feel better and more encouraged when you start to feel less achy and you realize you can push a little harder this week vs. last week. Relish in that pride and use it as a means to continually commit to your goals.
When your Changer voice is turned up, you will find yourself often in the midst of a food temptation when BOOM! in comes the voice of reason reminding you all the reasons you started in the first place. Let it bully you, listen to it, react towards the positive and you can't go wrong. Same thing goes in the gym: perhaps the instructor isn't looking your way or maybe you know you could do an extra 5 lbs on those weights but you just aren't up for it...when the Changer voice comes in to badger you, it's probably exactly right. I mean, you are there anyways. Don't just show up. Be present for the lifestyle change and give 100% effort or else you are wasting your time and that nagging voice of Thomas will come back to haunt you instead of encourage you like Corner Box Guy.
Obviously, I am going to suggest your try it for yourself. If you do manage to have this honest conversation with yourself, please comment on your experience. Did you turn up the volume on the Changer? Was there still a battle with Thomas? How about your true self-confidence level? How has changing your lifestyle helped you and would you do anything different? Do you allow the Changer to tell you when you are not applying yourself to the fullest potential (i.e. bully you)?
Your mind has the power to affect so much of your life. The choice is yours to make it worthwhile, positive and happy. You do not have to carry the mental and physical weight of those worries, stress, and all things Thomas loves. You don't have to believe in your self doubt; only YOU can give it power by feeding into those negative thoughts, those many excuses, or that false sense of confidence of make believe 'loving yourself' when you are overweight and can still do something about it. Take care of yourself. Love yourself. Support yourself. And you damned well better bully yourself to kick some a*$ every chance you get. After you reach those goals-start right back at it. I don't call that voice the Changer for nothing: it's meant to keep changing your life towards your fullest potential, beyond your initial goals, and to keep you on the path to personal growth and overall health.
In order to achieve something you never had, you must do something you never had. So bully on, my health-seeking vagabonds, bully that body into fitness submission. And then do it again :)
Love w/ all my bum,
CH
P.S. My Changer is cranked up high...yours SHOULD be too!
In order to achieve something you never had, you must do something you never had. So bully on, my health-seeking vagabonds, bully that body into fitness submission. And then do it again :)
Love w/ all my bum,
CH
P.S. My Changer is cranked up high...yours SHOULD be too!